the dumps :P

  When you just start at his active now chat and wonder if you should message. Maybe I should say hi. NAHHHH 🥲  ---- so I think I'll keep updating this thread instead of making more posts, bc my exact thought whenever kuya and he's distant is I gotta rant to da blog, u guys are so lucky to hear from me. /s so for example i called da kuya kuya, and bro was like wow ure calling kuya now. 🤣🤣🤣 i was like am I not supposed to, he has now left me on read 🥹 love my life!! --- 2 minutes later bro says he was just surprised that's all. DOES THAT MEAN HE DOESNT WANT ME TO CALL HIM MY OLDER BROTHER OR SOMETHING!?! GIVE ME SOMETHING TO WORK WITH HERE POPE FRANCIS /s --- the next day so we did end up talking, but imma feel really bad right now because I don't know what to do when people say they are sad. WHY DO I JUST SAY OH THATS NOT GOOD. LIKE OFC THEY KNOW THAT. ----- he calls me xiao mei AWUW ---- bro i have a problem. i hope he never sees this, or i hope no one ever sees t...

 I like when something hopeful and amazing has happened, and you know it's about to crash and not last and disappoint, but you still choose to be giddy. It's not living if it's not with you

 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Omigoshi hate online relationships, who tf invented this I give 3 out of 10 stars Byeeeee

 ...is surprisingly normal and honestly isn't that scary in the end, all of that for just a few seconds beforehand to hype yourself up to click a "Follow" button on a small smartphone screen. Lmao, wait till willow finds out. ---- When Ur waiting for him to reply so you decide to write on your vlog while you wait and then realise you should just get back wtf am I doing 😂😂😂😂😂 I feel like I should be offended or something but this is just hillarious bro I swear if this mf leaves me on delivered again i don't think texting is for me bwhahaha, dis has got to be an interesting experience. why am I so mean I think I need therapy other than self therapy