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 the way my brain cannot concentrate or focus right now is killing me. I don't know if it stems from the phone or francis or both haha.

last night I got a lil mad at kyla and fell asleep and then proceeded to have the vividest dreams ever so apparently by my watch standards I didn't get much sleep which is probably why my brain still feels fuzzy.

am i going to reach out to him tonight? probably. Is he going to be low effort and sad? probably. Is he grieving over his ex right now? also probably BWHAHAA


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